Saturday, October 18, 2014

What is life?

Hi, hello, como estan?

It's been a long time coming.. a long time writing.. a long time that I've not visited this blog or let alone had time to think about it.

For a period of time I was simply too scared to share anything with anyone. I felt like what I wrote or what I said was taken against my will and twisted into a completely different story. Then I realized, that this is me. This blog is me. This blog tells my story, my dreams, my nightmares, my sadness, my happiness. I share milestones here. I share mishaps. I share accomplishments. I realized there's no one that can take that away from me, no matter how hard they tried.

Between the last couple of months my life has changed drastically, for the better, and looking back and I can't help but shudder in disbelief about how many times I almost gave up chasing my dreams. Life is a funny thing if I may say so myself. The times you think you will not survive you come out on top of the world. Full of battle scars but still taking the number one spot. That's exactly like I feel. I feel like the past two years of my life were the fiercest battle I have ever had to fight in my entire life. However, I came out victorious, full of battle wounds and memories, and tears, and life altering changes, yet victorious and changed.

August was the beginning of the fulfilling life I had been seeking for the past two years. I have found my niche and a company that I had only dreamed of being a part of. Life fell into place at the wrong time, yet at the right time all at the same time. Just when I wasn't expecting it too. When I thought all hope was lost I literally get slapped in the face with the opportunity of a life time. It has been a hard journey yet here I stand basking in the joyful light that is one simple grain of faith.

For such a long time I wanted to make myself believe that I had faith that everything will work out until I finally believed it. Until I finally let go of controlling my life and finally lived my life. It's scary to not know what tomorrow holds but you can't live your life wondering if tomorrow will work out or not if you are physically in today.

I got there stumbling yet proud, you will too.

Just keep on keeping.

Oodles of love,