Thursday, December 30, 2010

Goodbye 2010, HELLO 2011!

As I say goodbye to 2010 and say hello to 2011 I realize that no matter how up and down this year has been for me I wouldn't have wanted it any other way. I met some amazing people, I cried, I laughed, I danced, I yelled, I was angered and happy all in one whole year. I achieved so many things this year both personal and academically and slowly as it all comes to an end all I can say is that I am blessed. Even if I didn't realize it then I can realize it now and that's what truly counts. It's truly magical to realize things like this. For 2011 I am not asking for a "new me" it's enough with a new year; 365 days where you can make new memories. I say make it count. May all of you have a wonderful night bringing in the new year. Forget about making promises you'll break later on in the year; raise your glass clank it against as many other glasses as you can and make sure you kiss the RIGHT person at midnight because he or she will determine your luck for 2011 ;)

Muahhhh my darlings! Lots of blessings for 2011.
See you all next year. XOXOXO. ♥

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Buried alive.

Recently I've made a decision that I know in the long run I will label as a mistake that I regret. However life has it's magical way of working things out, right? I've been here before in this place. This familiar place. I know these feelings all to well. How do I say this? I know I have dug my own hole and I am currently burying myself in it knowingly. It's insane that I am still proceeding with this but I rather be buried and safe than unburied and in harms way. This is a cheap way of running away from things but I have spent too much time either running or staying. I want to finally choose one. I want to either stay or leave and currently I choose to leave. Maybe for good or maybe just for now. I just want to feel sane once more.

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Saturday, December 25, 2010

'Tis the season.

Well Christmas has ended and I hope that everyone
who celebrates it had a wonderful day. My day was
completely blissful. I spent it with the people I
love most, in laughter and joy. Talking and sharing.
I truly couldn't have asked for anything else. My
life was truly complete today and even those who
were far felt near. It was truly one of the most
beautiful Christmas' I've had in a long time.
Now bring in the new year because I'm ready
for some changes. Muahhhhh guys!
I hope you have all been enjoying the holidays,
well those who do celebrate it. XOXO. ♥

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Sunday, December 19, 2010

I rather write than talk.

I don’t expect anyone to understand why I walk the way I walk
and talk the way I talk. I don’t expect anyone to understand
the way I think and go about my problems. I don’t expect anyone
to understand the way I live my life and why I rather write than
talk. How I rather lay on the grass than a bed. How I find
nature romantic and kisses feel better when they mean something.
I don’t expect anyone to understand that I rather stay still than
jump around or that I may be shy but once you get to know me I'm
an open book. How heights scare me and coloring makes me smile.
How the little things make me happy and money really isn’t
everything. I don’t expect anyone to understand that I rather
stay in than go around with big crowds. How chocolate brings out
my weak side and flowers make me happy. How music makes me dance
crazily and cry. I don’t expect anyone to understand that I like
to eat a lot or that long hair really fascinates me. How my sweats
are better than my jeans and looks don't really determine whether
I like you or not. I don’t expect anyone to understand that my life
is my family and family is my life. I don’t expect anyone to understand ♥

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Monday, December 13, 2010

Cloud 9.

Whether to cry or laugh or smile
or throw my arms up in joy...I have
no idea of which one to do & trust me
if I could do all of it at the same time
I would!

There's this saying that says "Patience
is virtue" & let me tell you my friends
that it is absolutely true. Everything
comes at it's divine right time. The
more patient you are the better. I
have so many things to be thankful for
recently that it's amazing...& I can't
help but thank GOD for all of them.
It's been a hard long road this past year
but better things are yet to come, wonderful
things. & I'm glad I've been patient enough
to be able to welcome all of these blessings
with arms and mind wide open.

Finals week has commenced for me! & if anyone
out there reading my blog is in college and
has finals: BEST OF LUCK! Hugs and reindeer
kisses! XOXOXO.

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Thursday, December 9, 2010


"Lately, I've become more aware that I'm
not over you yet, I'm not even close.

- Hollie S.

This describes me currently...

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Sonnet #116.

Let me not to the marriage of true minds

Admit impediments. Love is not love

Which alters when it alteration finds,

Or bends with the remover to remove:

O no! it is an ever-fixed mark

That looks on tempests and is never shaken;

It is the star to every wandering bark,

Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks

Within his bending sickle's compass come:

Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,

But bears it out even to the edge of doom.

If this be error and upon me proved,

I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

- William Shakespeare

I will forever love this sonnet, no matter where life takes me!
This is the true definition of love & I wish more people would
abide by it, things would be so much better off in this world...

Anyways life has been a little hectic! Last week of school then
finals next week BUT ohhhhhh the joy of going home for a month
is enough to pull me through this ;)
I hope you all have been doing grand! Much love and reindeer kisses!

xSigned___JNF ♥

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Vicious circle.

Here I am again... saying the same things.
I'm in the vicious circle again.
Even though I said I have gotten
out of it or I will get out of it or
whatever the case was.
All I know is that I'm in it again.

2 months ago was the last time I heard your
voice and yesterday you appeared yet again.
I didn't give into your words so easily but
the fact that you weren't trying to convince
me of anything just lured me in. You didn't
say sorry, you didn't try to make excuses;
you just told me straight from your heart
exactly what the deal was. You were running
away from your feelings and who's to blame you?
Some light conversation and some laughter later,
I was caught up....Here goes the confusion again.

xSigned___JNF. ♥