Thursday, January 27, 2011

You have a HUGE trustfund, now spend it!

I wanted to share this with all of you! I hope you enjoy it and find that it may brighten up your days like it did for me.

Keep the faith. Just keep it.

Holding firm in your belief about the life you want and taking action from that place creates miracles. The ride may be rocky. Times may sometimes be tough.

Things might not always work out the way you want them to, but if you keep the faith that your ideal scene in life is possible and never give up, soon enough it will come round to you.

You can't say you really have faith if you give up when things get tough. That's not real faith, that's pretend faith. Someone who has true faith in themselves and in The Uni-verse will press on no matter what the circumstance is.

There is no challenge too small for someone who is rooted in faith. There is no time that is too hard, because those with faith keep their ideal outcome in mind and know that they are stronger than their circumstances.

It's a well known that faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains. If money is tight, if no one believes in your dreams, if you just want to give up, remember you have a GIGANTIC TRUST FUND of faith that you can use.

Get busy spending your faith every day; it can never run out. Your dreams are real. Take action to make it so. Don't give up. Just press on one day at a time - the dawn will break, my friend, the dawn WILL break!

There is always hope. When you want to give up, when all seems lost, when there seems to be no reason to keep going - THIS MOMENT - is the moment to press on one more day. It is those who press on beyond the low points in life that push through that barrier of resistance into a seemingly magical world.

Faith is where it begins. Acting on your faith is how it happens. You do not have faith if you stop believing when things go wrong. The depth of your faith is tested when things go wrong.

- Mastin Kipp

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Saturday, January 22, 2011

MY heart talks...

It tells me to give up, it tells me to hold on. It tells me it’s not worth it, it tells me it’ll cost everything. It tells me to try one more time, it tells me to put the cards down. It tells me to keep going, it tells me to stop running. It tells me don’t cry, it tells me just let it out. It tells me everything’s going to be okay, it tells me it doesn’t look too bright. It tells me to forget it, it tells me to hold on tight. It tells me it’s a mistake, it tells me don’t regret it. It tells me to forgive you, it tells me to hate you. It tells me to stop trying, it tells me don’t give up. It tells me to move on, it tells me to stay put. It tells me to stop hurting myself, it tells me to go after you. And I’m telling myself let go.. let go of the pain.. the unnecessary torment .. But how can I when I obviously still love you like this. How can I forget you when I see you first within a crowd of hundreds. How can I move on when I am so close.. How can I stop trying when I want to be with you so badly.. I’m stressing myself out, making my mind run miles and miles in circles. I can’t make up my mind on which direction to take. Slowly I feel like I’m losing myself, piece by piece. I’m trying so hard for you to open your eyes, and see what love really is. To see who’s really right here for you. And it doesn’t help that I keep changing my mind every five seconds, confused on what to do. You make me so indecisive. So unsure. Should I stay, should I go? Pack my bags and leave? Stay up all night, with my phone in my hand, hoping I’d come to mind when you look for someone to call? Should I press ignore? Accept? You’re giving me nothing but mix signals. Sometimes, I don’t even know why I bother.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

We talk but do we listen?

We all talk about moving on. About letting things go. About leaving the past where it belongs, in the past. But you as well as I do know that it takes a lot of strength and courage to do the above. I've been on this boat. I've sailed in it many times. I've said my shares of "it's time to move on", "it's time to let it go", "it's time to leave the past where it belongs". Though how long do you tell yourself these things until you finally do them? I kid you not, I think I've been saying these things to myself for about 2 years about a certain relationship and still here I am. Still here I am moving on, leaving the past where it belongs, letting go. Maybe some of us do these things because we have no idea how to go about them. Maybe we do it because we are scared of the outcome. Maybe we do it because we have no idea what we are doing. I am lost. I am confused. I am lonely. I believe that I shouldn't be these things but I am and I can't help it. I can't help the fact that I exude these things more than I exude my own happiness. I am healthy. I am about to graduate college. I have a good family and a fantastic set of friends. I can't ask for more but I do ask to move on. I ask all the time. Nevertheless I am still glued to this forlorn place. And no matter how many times I tell myself move on, let go, leave the past where it belongs I still can't manage to do them..I wonder why?

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Saturday, January 15, 2011

New beginnings...

As I sit here after I've packed almost my whole room up to go back to college tomorrow I can't help but think about all the things that this new semester may bring. I don't know if these things will be good or will they be bad but whatever the case may be all I hope is that I learn and grow from them. I know everyone is scared of the unknown but lord help me I am beyond scared of what lies ahead of me. This is my last semester as an undergrad, meaning that next year at this time I'll be graduating college. How time flies... I remember like it was yesterday how I graduated high school with so many dreams. A scared little girl worried about what lied in college and here I am a young woman about to graduate college with top honors. I can't wait but I'm scared and I hope *crossing my fingers* that this semester is full of wonderful things. Well, talk to you guys some time soon! Just remember that when it comes to your dreams and aspirations NEVER TAKE NO FOR AN ANSWER! You must thrive because no matter what you will get there. Many blessings and lots of love from me to you. XOXO.

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Thursday, January 13, 2011

It isn't about...

It isn't about who I thought loved me then hurt me.
It isn't about who has made me cry.
It isn't about who told me they were going to be there, then disappeared.
It isn't about who didn't accept the way I am.
It isn't about any of that.
It's about the fact that throughout it all I can still smile.
I can still be happy & most importantly I can still love,
with all of my might as if I had never been hurt before.
That's exactly what it is about.

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Friday, January 7, 2011

Lonely days like today.

Sometimes I think of you.
I smile at the good memories we shared.
I remember your scent sometimes.
That fresh soapy smell the soap would leave on your skin after your shower.
You would cuddle with me and I would inhale deeply like it was my last breath.
But don't get frightened it wasn't like that I was just trying to capture your scent for days like today.
Lonely days.
Sometimes I remember snippets of our funny conversations and laugh all by myself.
Sometimes I remember the way you would kiss my forehead in the morning before you would leave to work and then call me during your break to tell me that you couldn't wait to come home to me.
Sometimes I remember the way you would kiss me with such passion or the way you would caress my body with your embrace.
Sometimes all I've got is this, memories.
For lonely days like today....

xSigned___JNF. ♥