For today.

I've been crying the whole day.. Since the moment I woke up, up until right now as I'm writing this.

This is what I'm going to do.
I'm going to keep crying.
I'm going to be angry.
Be disappointed.
Feel used.
Be frustrated.
Feel like a failure.

I'm going to live in these feelings the whole day.
And when tomorrow comes I'm going to wake up and I'm going to
Forget about them.

The beauty about feelings is that you can control them.
You can live in feelings for as long as you want but you always have the choice of unpacking your baggage or simply picking up the pieces and moving on when you feel like it.

So for today I'm going to live in these feelings.
And for tomorrow I'm going to pick up the pieces and move on.


Xoxo, J.

The truth is...

Hi.. This is for the people of the internet.
The readers.
The writers.
The lovers.

The truth is that the more intimately you know someone, the more clearly you’ll see their flaws. That’s just the way it is. This is why marriages fail, why children are abandoned, why friendships don’t last. You might think you love someone until you see the way they act when they’re out of money or under pressure or hungry, for goodness’ sake. Love is something different. Love is choosing to serve someone and be with someone in spite of their filthy heart. Love is patient and kind, love is deliberate. Love is hard. Love is pain and sacrifice, it’s seeing the darkness in another person and defying the impulse to jump ship. -Melanie J Williams


Xoxo, J.

Feed your soul but starve your wallet.

I have a soul sister.
Her soul and my soul align perfectly together.
We usually discuss politics, life, books, Jesus, love, money, business, and world news.
When my soul aches her soul aches as well and vise versa.

Last night we were talking about our lives and how unbelievably frustrating they have been lately.
You see we are two young adults trying to make it in this life.
We want happiness, prosperity, health, love & success; via our own definition of course.
The problem is sometimes we may need the help of others to achieve this and sometimes those others may not be so willing to help.

I live in a city where young adults are clawing at their very own selves to try and make a living.
No one understands the struggle of living in a poverty stricken city like young adults trying to make a living.
I truly dislike telling myself that I hate where I live but sometimes I do.
Everyone asks for experience on your resume but no one is willing to help you get it or better yet allow you to do so.
Trust me if experience were something I could buy I would do so in a heartbeat.

Everyone in this city lives with a stick up their ass.
Mad at the world because this city is "oh so bad".
When in turn they are the only ones making this city the way it is.

None wants to give young adults a chance because they stereotype us all.
They say that we are lazy, spoiled, entitled and not willing to work for what we want.
It's beyond overwhelming and frustrating.

I love this place.
It has so much potential and livelihood but no one seems to care about it.
And that's where the problem lies...
Everyone scrambling to make a living. To pay the bills, the school loans, car payments, mortgages yet there are but so many jobs and new ones aren't being created.

So that leaves us, the young adults, with nothing but empty hands and empty dreams.
They feed your soul but starve your wallet.



xoxo, J.