Love of my life.

You know what bothers me more than anything in this world? You don't? Well I'll tell you. It's a person that is not self assured. YOU implies ONE person not 3 or 4 or even 2 like many of you think. If you can't be alone with yourself, there's a problem. If you can't be detached and still be happy, there's a problem. If you can't please yourself in every aspect of life, there's a problem. There is nothing more unattractive than a person that's ALWAYS talking about "ohhh I need a boyfriend/girlfriend" what you NEED is a REALITY check. Shut your ass up and look at yourself in the mirror and repeat after me: "I am worthy. I am the love of my life. If I can't love myself no one ever will" OVER & OVER & OVER & OVER & OVER again! Until you can't anymore! Life is so short, so unpredictable & trust me the last thing you want to do is waste it away dreaming about what it could be like.

XO!

xSigned___JNF. ♥

For most of life...

"For most of life, nothing wonderful happens. If you don’t enjoy getting up and working and finishing your work and sitting down to a meal with family or friends, then the chances are that you’re not going to be very happy. If someone bases his happiness or unhappiness on major events like a great new job, huge amounts of money, a flawlessly happy marriage or a trip to Paris, that person isn’t going to be happy much of the time. If, on the other hand, happiness depends on a good breakfast, flowers in the yard, a drink or a nap, then we are more likely to live with quite a bit of happiness."
-Andy Rooney


You know the drill ♥
XO!

xSigned___JNF.♥

Believe. Stand Up. Keep Walking.

"I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. "I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh." I've been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart and my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does. Ever."

You may remember this from the very first post I posted on my blog. Today that is exactly how I feel. There is this ongoing situation in my life that is currently happening and even though I've tried to be as humble as possible about it, I don't really think I can anymore. When I love, I love with passion, with commitment, with desire, with everything that is within me. Isn't that how you are suppose to love? What kills me the most about the entire situation is that no one has asked me how I feel about it. How it has affected me and my point of view. I would say fuck it, but that would be my pride talking and I've tried to refrain from that. But how can you be professional if you're getting weird stares, you're getting whispered behind your back, you're blatantly getting talked about? I know with my whole heart that what I did, which was stand up for my beliefs, wasn't out of my character. & standing up for what I believe in will never be a regret. What will be a regret is the fact that I spent so much time, effort, commitment, money and love on something that reaped nothing but undesirability, unwantedness, anger, stress, unfaithfulness, and many other things. What I'm trying to get to is that besides all of these negative things deep within me I will never forget how much drive, passion, commitment and love I had for this. Ever.

XO.

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Valentine's day 2012.

"At any moment, Love could walk into your life and change it forever." - Mastin K.

It's Valentine's day! The day filled with mushy cards, lots of flowers, chocolate, balloons, BIG gifts, BIG love. If you are attached you rejoice. THEN there are some of you that are single and you go about hating everything and eveyrone on Valentine's day. GET YOURSELF A DAMN HOBBY! I would usually say to those that are single and moping to "love yourself", to "look on the positive side of things", etc etc but not today! Ever since last night the social media websites have been flooded with wonderful Valentine's day messages, for those who are in love and for those who are BITTER about love. All I have to say is that "You will NEVER attract your new love still being bitter about your old love." Get a grip on yourself! XO!


xSigned___JNF. ♥

Even if it kills you.

"sometimes
the only way to realize how unhappy you are
is to leave the things you think you want behind
(even if it kills you)
because if you can't be happy alone
you're not happy.

and there is no greater thrill
than being happy
and alone." - Unknown

If you cant complete yourself, no one will ever be able to add to you.

XO!


xSigned___JNF. ♥

Free your bliss.

"Right now you might not feel the best you've ever felt, you might feel that things will never get better. But don't give up. Tomorrow you might see something wonderful. The thing you're worrying about may be resolved. You might have a good day tomorrow, you may smile. In a few years time the things that are making you feel like this will be forgotten about." - Unknown

I read this and I cried. I made a decision that deep down makes me entirely melancholy but it was for the best. May your days be filled with happiness. XO.


xSigned___JNF. ♥

You can have this.

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life." — Bob Marley


There's a kind of love that makes you feel like anything is possible. I want you to know that you can have that.

XO!

xSigned___JNF. ♥