Closure.

"Don't let loneliness drive you back into the arms of someone you KNOW doesn't give a damn about you."

The other night I did this. I let my loneliness drive me back into the arms of someone I know (or atleast I think I know) doesn't give a damn about me. Funny thing is loneliness did the same thing for him. Maybe we both do care no matter how much we go around telling people we "just don't give a damn." Closure is something I have never understood. How many times do you get closure until you've satisfied that thirst within you to get closure? What is closure? Is closure when the other person blatantly tells you that he or she doesn't want anything to do with you anymore, forcing you to move on? Is closure when the other person tells you that things will never work out between the both of you? Is closure a kiss? Is it a hug? It is 'closure sex'? Is it a word of comfort? What exactly is closure? When defined it states that it is an act or process of closing something. How long is the act? How long is the process? It doesn't state. Can you go your whole life closing something? Because it seems to me that I've been closing this chapter of my life for the past couple of years but maybe what I need is this one little thing called closure. This one little thing that I have no idea how to go about. Do I write a letter? Send a text? Tell him to meet me somewhere so we can talk, like adults? Deep down what I really want is for him to look me dead in my eyes and tell me, "Jamie, you and I, will never be one." I also know deep down he wouldn't do this (it's a gut feeling! You know what they say about a woman's intuition!). But if he does do that then what? Have I gotten my closure?

xSigned___JNF. ♥