Move on...

"See there's this place in me where your
fingerprints still rest, your kisses still
linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's
the place where a part of you will forever
be a part of me."
-Gretchen Kemp

It'll be 1 year in November.
I still feel your lips on mine.
Your warmth.
Your love.
God only knows how much I miss you.
I know what you did to me was wrong.
Everything came undo but...
I can still feel your forehead kisses.
I can still feel your hands playing with my hair.
I can still feel how you passionately caressed my body.
I can still hear all the beautiful things you used to
tell me.
I can still see your smile.
One year ago...
How time flies...
This was for the better of us...
Time will show me...
But it's been one year...
Move on...
I wonder if you think of me?...
Move on...
Do you roll over in bed & wished I was there?...
Move on...
Do you wish to call me when life is taking you by?...
Move on...
One year ago...
How time flies...
Move on...



xSigned___JNF. ♥

I yearn.

I yearn for someone, something.
Love.
Happiness.
Forehead kisses.
Warmth.
Hugs.
Talks.
Walks.
Holding hands.
Someone to share my all with.
Good or bad.
I understand now what commmunication brings.
Closure.
Happiness.
Concern.
I want you to want me.


xSigned___JNF. ♥

Soulmate.

"But how will I know who my soul mate is?"

"By taking risks," Wicca said to Brida."By
risking failure, disappointment, disillusion,
but never ceasing in your search for Love. As
long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end."

-Paulo Coelho



xSigned___JNF. ♥

SUPERWOMAN. (Vienna)

This describes me currently.
I just want to conquer the WORLD!
:D


"Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
Are you still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day...

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get
halfway through
When will you realize...
Vienna waits for you?"

- Billy Joel


xSigned___JNF. ♥

Regret.

I hope one day you don't regret loosing me.


xSigned___JNF. ♥

You reap what you sow.

I saw you. I had you. You saw me.
You savored me. We spent the night
in utter bliss in eachothers arms
without any hesitation. Then you
disappeared and that was the last
straw for me. I can't bear having
you so close yet so far away from
me. I can't let you keep using me.
I have chosen to not be readily-avaible
for you. I am tired of the same thing
over and over again with you. It is not
my problem that you hide your feelings,
run from them, and are scared of them.
I know what I want. I wanted you. Now I
want myself. I want to love myself. I
want to triumph and succeed for myself.
I wanted to do these things with you but
you pushed me over the edge. & I have
finally reached the bottom. Currently
climbing to the top with my own bare
hands. Skinning my knees on the way.
Blistering my heart. Just knowing that
I am doing this for one specific reason.
MYSELF. I will love one day again. I just
know it won't be you because this is what
I have chosen for myself. I have finally
let go of what was and started to understand
what is. You were right, you don't deserve me.
But I have learned. You have taught me lessons.
You have taught me to be just a bigger fighter.
I commend you for that. I still love you,
ofcourse. Falling out of love is hard but
I fell for something worse. I fell for betrayal
& now that's what I am currently getting over.
Your betrayal. But life goes on. So I guess
I will be completely fine. Scarred but fine.
Cautious but fine. I just know that nothing
in this world goes undone. You reap what you sow.

xSigned___JNF. ♥

Update & POWER TO WOMEN!

It's been forever!
Just know that the swing of things
has enhanced. School has come to
a full circle now. I am just going
'round and 'round until break arrives.
I won't complain, it keeps me busy.
REALLY busy. So busy I have no time to
think about mediocre things. Alot has
happened in my life lately. Alot of good
things, alot of bad things. However I am
thankful for every single one of those
things.

Now I bring to you this topic,
the single woman topic. I am utterly
tired of the repsonse I get for being
an independent, hard-working, single
woman. I would love to know what is
wrong with that? Why is it a problem
that, for now, I would love to be POWERFUL,
SUCCESSFUL & SINGLE all at the same time?
Why do I need a man in my life to do all
of the above? Society has molded our minds
to think that a woman is nobody without a
man. That women are doormats, that women
cannot succeed in this life without a man.
Well I will tell you otherwise. This is NOT
true! You can be anyone you want to be in
this world if you persevere, if you push
through all of your barriers, if you commit
yourself to it. WE were born alone, yes we
were. & yes I understand God did not put us
in this world to be alone becuase if that's
the case he would have only made one gender
but as a woman I can truly say that we have
become so dependent on men. Just to prove
this let's start with careers. When someone
asks me what is my major in school and I
reply with: "I am a Business Management
major with a double Minor in Economics
and Spanish and a Concentration in
Leadership" some look at me like I am
retarded leading to in short terms "that's
a males field." Then they follow with the
question "What do you want to do with that?"
As if that is a trick question, so I answer
"I want to work for a leading corporation, to
then fend out on own to my own business, preferably
a jointly owned company, to then later on in
my life be a business professor in an accredited
higher institution." That's when they really
loose it. We as woman has been pin-pointed with
so many labels and it's kind of sad. However, I
refuse to let those things get in the way of what
I want to do with my life. Will it be hard because
of my gender? Hell Yes! But I rather tell my problems
how BIG my God is!

Power to women all around the world!

xSigned___JNF. ♥