Ugly things.

My blog is not only for beautiful things. It is also for ugly things. I had refrained from writing about "ugly" things for such a long time, but I am human. Therefore, sometimes ugly things happen. Sometimes I feel ugly things. However, I know my ugliness, I've seen it so I am allowed to share it with you.

If I were to tell you that right now, at this exact moment in time, while sitting here at work, I am happy; I would be called a liar. Am I content with certain aspects of my life, sure I am. Am I happy at this point in time, not particularly. You know that famous saying that goes "Things happen for a reason"? Well I'm trying to figure out the reasons as to why this weekend so many things happened to me. From upsetting my best friend and having my actions make her act in a way I had never seen to getting into a nasty car accident. Life has it's twists and turns I know that but as a human I can't help but think why me? I am completely exhausted, mentally, emotionally, VERBALLY, physically; every way possible. Anyone may look at me and want my life but it takes more than looking to make such decision.

You may read this and think "well atleast you're alive" & you're absolutely, completely, correctly, perfectly CORRECT! (Sorry had to get my point across!) & I am so THANKFUL for being alive and being able to go about my everyday life. Everyday I am thankful, for just seeing a new day. I know life isn't perfect & I know that many things can happen. Heck, I may not even wake up tomorrow but this is my blog & I am human & I sometimes feel ugly things.

xSigned___JNF. ♥